mrs. kwon

6:07 PM i have a lot on my mind these days...

first, i'll start with my day. woke up, face not washed XD ate a cheese sandwich. got ready to go to bayshore. the boys already left with daddy to go to grandpa nao soua house. we left, went to bayshore. bayshore is pretty awesome man. i've been missing out ROFL XD mommy stayed in the car, like usual, and me, nai, and tia went to h&m and forever21. i got this super cool bag and red, blue, and black striped sweater from h&m. thanks nai, mommy. and nai was talking to me about the money stuff...proved a very good point. i had some issues about it, cuz it seemed like i never got nothing no more..but i was just being selfish. our family is big, and we're all needy. i really do wish i had a job. i'm so unhireable. wth is with that?! ughh..so then we dropped nai off at vj's. me and tia went in to see kp LMAO XD the indian simon d..funny. i didn't really look at him cuz i didn't wanna look like i had staring problems or nothing XD so then we went to grandpa nao soua house. jennifer was there, playing with her phone. it's pretty cool, lucky her. we barely talked. courtney was there too, then left to go to roger sister wedding. then we all left and came home. then me and tia cleaned the room. we also found the camera; fell behind the matress cuz somebody wanted to fall asleep with it and whatnot. and now i'm just on the computer. yup, there goes my day.

so.. now i can get to whas really been bothering me.

tony.

there, i finally got it out my system.

he's been bothering me, not him as in himself, but the whole situation with him. i'm confused. i'm frustrated. i'm mad. i'm sad. i'm disappointed..idk how to start. idk who to talk to. idk what to do. idk anything. i just dk. i..man. idk. i'm kinda avoiding him now. i've been thinking about him/the situation lately. truth is, if linda didn't used to like him, i wouldn't be so stressed out. i love linda..a close friend of mines..she has done things in the past to upset me, but i forgive and move on with my life. i love linda..she never told me about tony much. she's more close to lydia, like i'm more close to esther. sighs..i never knew why she liked tony. she never even told me that she had stopped liking him until that 8th grade open house day..but i just feel so bad. linda barely likes people, and to know that she liked tony and i kinda like tony. wait, i don't like tony. ugh..idk, i don't like tony, but i don't don't like tony too, ya know? but to know that, it's like a bomb on my heart. ok, that might be an over-dramatic way to put it, but my heart feels heavy these days. i can feel it tugging in directions..dropping. deep sighs. i'm so stressed. idk. like, tony, he's so nice..he's really funny and he's just so nice, like tony is real nice. he's cool and funny. he's a really sweet guy. i enjoy talking to him on msn, i really do. he's so funny and when i'm mad or not feelng good or cold, he tries to make me feel better..and tbh, it does. and the other day when he went to pick his sister from her friend house and came back, he told me he missed me..and then asked if i missed him. i said yeahh, just to be nice, but honestly, i kinda did, only kinda. and tony and i make faces at eachother at school alot, so on days when i don't, he be like "why didn't you do your funny face to me today?" and stuff. and he told me that the face i make is usually unattractive, but he likes it on my face. how nice..and when we play chess or checkers on msn and he tells me to move and i'd be like hold on i'm thking, he'll send me this emoticon with the rocks eyebrow cuz apparently, when i think my eyebrows go up XD and when i mess up on a move, he let's me undo my move, but i don't let him undo ROFL XD and once, i was asking him for hair advice, to cut or to grow my hair out, and he said that as long as my face doesn't change then my hair would always look good..isn't that sweet? tony's so nice. he's just so nice. he let's me play with his itouch and gets a pretend attitude when i ask for it, but still gives it to me. he purposely bumps into me at school..funny tony. and then we were talking about him going to vegas for thanskgiving and he asked if i was gonna miss him. i told him yup, i'm gonna miss you tons. and he asked if i was being sarcastic and i just said, you tell me..LOL. secretive ol me. then eventually i told him i would though, but then said "you'll miss me more." and he said "maybe." then i told him to call me when he's gone cuz he's gonna be gone all next next week and he was like "no, you call me." and i said no and he said why. so i told him it was cuz i didn't wanna end up calling and he was doing something with his family and he said "don't worry. i won't be so busy that i wouldn't answer your call." nice ol tony..he's on msn now, but i'm hiding. i don't really feel like talking to him tonight..anyone for that matter. a small part of me does wnna talk to tony though..tony's just so nice. idk how to put it in words. he's a really nice guy.

and me?

i'm a stressed out girl.